Was able to do my twenty minutes devotion first thing this morning. It really bothered me that i could not do it yesterday. It’s rare when i am that busy with the family that i cannot find even twenty solitary minutes. My children are not small anymore. Thankfully, i get plenty of time to myself on any given day. It feels unsettling to me when for some reason my slave routine gets interrupted.

Going off to daughter’s show in a little bit. Then back to work tonight. It’s been a nice break from work, as they called me off on Thursday so i ended up having five nights in a row off. That is good sometimes when you’ve got a job like mine. My work can be very draining. A lot of emotions are flying and it can get pretty intense. But i love it.

It’s hard to believe that Master has been in my life such a relatively short time, going on nine months here pretty soon, and yet it’s difficult to remember my life before meeting him. My life has changed so much during the course of these nine months. All for the better, of course.

I remember at first, things with Master seemed more, i don’t know, impersonal? Distant? It was more like an Order was set up between us, the ground rules were laid out, and off we went. We interacted, but we didn’t really know each other. Kind of like a new employer/employee relationship in a way. Formal, structured. Well, not super formal, but very much on Master’s terms. I knew what was expected of me, and i didn’t push my limits. Maybe once or twice, but was swiftly and surely reprimanded each time.

I recall being rewarded with several days of silence from Master early in the relationship for essentially trying to push him to do my bidding. The thing i wanted back then from him was only more communication; more time. But it was the way i went about trying to get that. I’ve learned since then how to ask for what i want/need appropriately. At least i hope i have learned, lol. I don’t do the silent treatment very well at all. Therefore, it sends quite the Master message loud and clear; how ironic is that?

Being Master’s property is simple. I’ve only to respectfully obey everything he tells me. lol. Simple; but at times, not so simple. Master expects me to be a high functioning, productive, successful individual in my vanilla life. Those qualities naturally extend into my life as His slave. A cake is only as good as the ingredients that go into it. Same with the making of a slave. My Master is very wise. Either that, or a really good cook. Or maybe both. lol.

During the unfolding of this post my daughter came in my room sounding and looking ill. She is all congested. She said she has cramps too, poor thing and we are not going to the show. It is fine. It is her choice.

It’s a beautiful fall day outside again. Crisp, cool and sunny. The leaves splaying a brilliant array of fall colors. Fall is probably my most favorite season. Such a welcome change from the last dog days of summer. Fall typically signals the near end of a cycle of growth. But to me, it is also like a beginning. Fresh school year and time to learn new things. A time to be a person for whom undoubtedly exciting things will happen allowing for growth and improvement. And although it has been quite some time since i have been an active student, even after all these years i still tend to view fall in this way. I’m the eternal optimist. Fall is a time of hope.

So here’s hoping for all good things.