Posted by: doubleknot on: August 29, 2008
Work was challenging for me this week. In part, because I am still feeling quite under the weather, but also in part because of this one patient in particular I was caring for.
She is in her thirties suffering from a very severe fungal type lung infection resulting from steroid treatment of a very [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 24, 2008
I’ve been sick, and as my head is full of congestion, my thoughts have similarly been, well, congested.
I’ve had a lot, LOT on my mind. Reading fetlife sparked so many interesting ideas. I’ll start with just one, alright, well, two; that of honesty and trust in M/s relationships.
Of course the pat answer [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 18, 2008
Today was a really good day. I spent the morning with Master. I told him today felt like a turning point for me.
What I mean by that is, today just flowed very naturally with him. And I love it when that happens. Today, I was completely attuned to both Master as well as [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 14, 2008
The night I wrote my previous post, I was feeling reeeaalllly frustrated. I explained my frustrations and difficulties to Master, of course and there was one nugget he had for me: (this is why I love him so…)
“Here is something I want you to cling to: There is nothing you can [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 12, 2008
Warning, rant coming… aimed at myself.
Why be a slave? Either you’re a strong-willed woman who chose it, or a weak woman who couldn’t refuse it. I think in my case, it is a bit of both.
Is both even a sane conclusion? How can I be both??
Sometimes, I am perfectly in tune [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 10, 2008
The other day, my Owner said,
“I want you to focus on a single thought… that I value your obedience above all; that your obedience is what makes me tick, what drives me. It is what I seek, and what I take. Focus on what your obedience means to me; the key is to me… [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 9, 2008
And after a much needed remodeling session, I’m back.
No, it doesn’t look much different, but the internal structure needed some work. So now that the I-beams are secure and the foundations bolstered, I can return to the job of purging my mental masturbation out here for all of you who get off on [...]
