“Today I drank from the River.  It tasted oh so sweet…” 

I am a creative, emotional, empathic old soul.  My Owner would like it best if he had total control of my emotional well-being.  I’m not so sure that is possible.  But, knowing my Owner as I do, I would not be surprised if one day he succeeds in his endeavor; because he seems to have a pretty high success rate in achieving his goals.

I want to be able to fully surrender my emotions to Master’s complete control.  But I am not quite sure exactly how this is done.  I have owned my emotions my entire life.  My emotions fill me up.  I turn them around and around and from them evolve some of my best creative work.  I wonder what surrendering them to His control would do to that process; how it would play out.  What would it even look like? 

I daresay I feel a bit resistant to the whole notion of surrendering my emotionscape to my Owner, if only because it would put him in control of my creativity.  For without soaking in the heights and depths of my feelings, I don’t know what sort of creative output I would have.

I don’t think Master’s goal is to stifle my creativity, but rather contain the toxic feelings in particular; the emotions that while they may lead to some creative product, may not be worth said product.  It may be very well that that product is easily sacrificed for the sake of my emotional health and well-being. 

Time will tell.  And Master will win out.  He always does.