doubleknot’s ruminations

My owner is not one for numerous protocols and such, but there is a daily ritual he began for me early on… this began just about two years ago:  my daily devotion.
The devotion is performed blindfolded either on my knees, or forehead to the floor with my ass up.  For twenty minutes I am to [...]

Can I just say I feel dorky today?  I do.
Gaaaaahhhhhhhh…
*Deep Sigh*
I know I’m a slave.  In the main.  Sometimes, I mean.  I do.
I know I ain’t ever gonna win.  Doesn’t it seem like there’s a hundred little power struggles in a relationship sometimes?  They’re often very subtle, but still, they are there.  We want them [...]

Even after the shower I can smell you on me:  on my face, my hands.  It’s intoxicating.
Like the last trip.  You took me to be with you.  I can’t say you asked me to come.  You never ask me anything, but you tell me plenty.  You don’t ask, you take.  You taught me that.  [...]

The Bdsm sites of the interwebz are an odd place to hang out.  I am increasingly finding that I don’t seem to fit in… anywhere.  Oh sure, there are bits and pieces of each place I visit that I can relate to, a little bit.  I am called a slave by my Owner.  That’s what [...]

I idolize my Master.  Let’s face, it; I do.
And it’s not that I put him up on a pedestal, I don’t.  I know he isn’t perfect.  But in a way, he kinda is.  I mean, he may not do everything the way I like, nor even does he always act in my best interest. [...]

Yeah.  I know.  I’ve been quiet.
I’ve been reading a bit at Fetlife, chuckling to myself, making the odd comment, then watching the entire thread go *poof*.  (I secretly like to think that I personally am responsible when that happens, lol)
But seriously, the last thread I commented on was about some guy who told his [...]

There’s something about Master’s touch that drives me wild.  Cliche?  Maybe…but an apt one nonetheless.  I make no apologies.
I am an odd creature.  I seem to possess both confidence, even perhaps, over-the-top egoism, as well as deep-rooted insecurities in about equal measure.  It puzzles me sometimes.  How is that possible?  But there it is.
And [...]

I hate it when it’s only 4:30 and already I can’t wait until bedtime.  I don’t know why I feel so tired lately.  Bahh.
Tomorrow will start early.  I have to be out the door by six because I want to get a jump on rush hour.  I have a conference to attend for work.  [...]

Is a slave who is granted a certain amount of autonomy any less a slave than one who has little or none?  Let me clarify.  If you are a slave, and you are left largely to your own devices while your owner is working long hours, with travel for days at a time, are you [...]

Alright.  So, it’s raining.
No, cancel that; it’s coming down in sheets.
And it’s windy.
And the temperature is hovering just under 40 degrees.
Yesterday, I got out of work early due to a flare up of da ‘pink-eye’; which seems to be going around.  The weather was, shall we say, Fan-fucking-tastic!  It was warmmmmm, there [...]