Posted by: doubleknot on: June 30, 2009
I have to tell you about this one bit I forgot to mention in yesterday’s post.
Talking superficially about what’s new with him, and how was work for me, etc, was fairly easy. I vented a lot about my hub’s upcoming big move out. This choked me up a bit, because as I said, the [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 29, 2009
Wow, it’s really weird how past relationship experience bleeds into present ones. Not so good when the present one involves a Master. Because they don’t like being told,
“No, I’m not doing that.”
“I am not taking your money.”
“I am not depending on you.”
“Yes, I’m scared, but no, I cannot lean on you for support. That [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 28, 2009
What a weekend!
There was a “meet the neighbors” gathering where I in fact, met all sorts of neighbors I’ve been living near for years yet never knew. They were all so nice! Hub of course didn’t want to join in because he will have a moving truck in front of the house in a couple [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 27, 2009
(Traveling in Master’s dual-climate control vehicle on a 95-degree day…)
dk: (shivering with goosebumps all over…) “Master, your cold air is drifting over to my side…”
M: “You don’t have a side”
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 24, 2009
I just got back. I was reading through the comments from my last post, eyes getting all tearful.
Kaya said to go ahead and grieve. That’s it, pretty much. I am grieving. We had a good run, him and me. It wasn’t all bad. I know there’s no future there, and it’s sad. You work [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 23, 2009
Master took me to work with him for a few days this week. Can I just say, it’s frikkin’ HOT where Master works?!!! Mid-nineties here. Ugh! I don’t know which is worse, the heat, or the deep-freeze a/c Master HAS to have running in his room (and car) 24/7. People must think I’m a nut [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 21, 2009
So, today was father’s day. Happy Father’s day to all the dads out there. I had to work, but got to go home a bit early which was good because I am leaving first thing in the morning to be with Master for a few days. I still had laundry to finish, and ironing, [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 18, 2009
Master came to my house today. I love it when he comes here. He’s only been here a handful of times, but it’s special each and every time.
The storm is here. The waves are rocking me violently. Master is my oasis. He holds me tight and keeps me feeling safe. I am so grateful [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 15, 2009
I’m emotionally a bit labile the past few days. but I’m probably coping better than I could have expected. I’m certain Master is the reason. I feel all tucked in and well-cared for lately. I feel I am in a safe haven being His.
Work is part of it. My job is hard. I take [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 12, 2009
Do you trust anyone completely? 100%?
Trust is tough. I am finding, that the more the rug is pulled out from under me, and the more scared I get, the more I need to trust Master. Grabbing onto that trust is kind of like being thrown into the deep end of a pool when you’re [...]
