Posted by: doubleknot on: October 4, 2008
I suck at figuring out things like embedding video/audio into my blog. This is why you’ll rarely find such interesting things like that here, lol. I only just figured out how to add images, and I must say that was pretty satisfying!
I have been swirling around in a dustcloud of emotions lately it seems, and [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: September 29, 2008
Sometimes I think our relationship is in many ways almost vanilla. We don’t practice high protocols. We barely practice any sort of protocols. Outside of a few sticky little rules Master has for me regarding my speech.
When we are not specifically engaged in physical acts of S&M, I feel almost, almost on equal footing with [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: September 7, 2008
One very large aspect of any human being is their emotions. And granted, sometimes it is very easy for my emotions to swell and rise with affection towards my Master. Yet other times, not so much, lol.
The intrusion of negative emotions is a difficult area to bring under Master’s control. And I’m not [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 20, 2008
I have been quiet and contemplating this week; filled with less of my usual vigor for life. Perhaps emotionally wrung out. Exhausted, yes, with tears never very far from the surface.
Anger that ordinarily glides o’erhead now lingers, covering me in a thick wrap and impairing my gait as I try to maneuver through [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: March 5, 2008
“So, the idea here is, “If I get something out of this, then maybe I’m only acting like a slave to get that… therefore, maybe I’m not a slave in the first place.” Is that it?
Would you believe that you are over thinking this? *smiles*. It is a given that you would [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: February 4, 2008
Speaking of love in M/s relationships…………
Yes, i love my Master. I didn’t feel this way at first of course. The love grew over time. I remember early on being very careful of my place. In the beginning, i tuned in very carefully to exactly what Master said, especially as it [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: November 17, 2007
Anyone peering in on my life from afar (save a few slave types) would say i am crazy. Certifiably so. Yet, that knowledge rarely even gives me pause. I know i am far from mainstream. I have determined to stay true to who i am since i moved out of my [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: November 16, 2007
One thing i’ve noticed since being owned by Master is that i am not the emotional basketcase i once was. The main reason is that emotional tactics don’t work with Master.
Well, i was not an emotional basketcase. At least not every day. I did however, seem to be held captive [...]
