Posted by: doubleknot on: January 23, 2009
Work was crazy, busy yesterday. I was floated off my regular unit onto the cardiac floor. Not exactly my cup of tea, but I survived. Today my work boss phoned to ask if I could work pm’s but i told her I was busy with family business; which is true.
Master graciously gave me permission [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 29, 2008
Work was challenging for me this week. In part, because I am still feeling quite under the weather, but also in part because of this one patient in particular I was caring for.
She is in her thirties suffering from a very severe fungal type lung infection resulting from steroid treatment of a very [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 18, 2008
Today was a really good day. I spent the morning with Master. I told him today felt like a turning point for me.
What I mean by that is, today just flowed very naturally with him. And I love it when that happens. Today, I was completely attuned to both Master as well as [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 10, 2008
The other day, my Owner said,
“I want you to focus on a single thought… that I value your obedience above all; that your obedience is what makes me tick, what drives me. It is what I seek, and what I take. Focus on what your obedience means to me; the key is to me… [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: July 9, 2008
Our relationship is weird. It’s like none I’ve ever experienced before, and not just for the obvious reasons; I’m talking more about the hidden exchanges between us. The relationship dynamics make it unlike anything I’ve known, and always leaving me feeling just one step off; like I can never quite keep my balance around him. [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 27, 2008
It has been a weird week, with lots of time for thinking. For the most part, I feel very settled in my place as Master’s slave. I have been thinking about him a lot. No time together this week though, perhaps that is why all the pondering.
I think back to the very earliest [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 23, 2008
It’s funny… I got into the “scene” in the first place because my sexual fantasies eventually lured the timid me out of hiding. Soon I found out I wasn’t alone; there were a host of folks out there just like me. And for every kink that I thought extreme, there were always some “lifestylers” out [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 20, 2008
I have been quiet and contemplating this week; filled with less of my usual vigor for life. Perhaps emotionally wrung out. Exhausted, yes, with tears never very far from the surface.
Anger that ordinarily glides o’erhead now lingers, covering me in a thick wrap and impairing my gait as I try to maneuver through [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 3, 2008
Remember that song?
“Red and yellow and pink and green… purple and orange and blue…”
“I can sing a rainbow, sing a rainbow, sing a rainbow too”
Or I can just look down at my tits and see one too.
Master and I had a delightful morning of bonding and bondage and beating. The three [...]
