Posted by: doubleknot on: January 30, 2009
Something happened today, something too good not to post about. But it was so rich, so full of food for thought, that I am not sure which bit to focus on; there was that much stuff going on in the exchange. So I guess I’ll just ramble on about it and see what comes out.
So, [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: January 24, 2009
“The instinct of ownership is fundamental in man’s nature” ~William James
It’s no secret I dislike some parts of being owned. Especially ownership of my orgasms. Those of you who have read here for some time know that for me, ownership of my orgasms is like the final frontier.
I could easily sign over my [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: October 2, 2008
God, some days I truly wrestle with coming here to my blog; to write something honest and real. I do. Some days I really just want to make stuff up; stuff that puts me in a much better light. Silly huh?
It’s hard to write about slavery, because let’s face it, slavery [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: September 29, 2008
Sometimes I think our relationship is in many ways almost vanilla. We don’t practice high protocols. We barely practice any sort of protocols. Outside of a few sticky little rules Master has for me regarding my speech.
When we are not specifically engaged in physical acts of S&M, I feel almost, almost on equal footing with [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: September 25, 2008
Master said something today that got me thinking.
He said that he has had to transition from the “hunting” to the “owning” phase of our relationship. I suppose I too, have gone through similar changes; and I’m not so certain that transition has been exactly seamless for either one of us. I would wager in fact, [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: September 20, 2008
I don’t have any great insights. I don’t have anything particularly witty to say. I don’t have any opinions that I can debate well enough to convince my opponents of their worthiness.
All I know is my Owner loves me. He believes in me. He is determined to own me, specifically me, and no one [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 29, 2008
Work was challenging for me this week. In part, because I am still feeling quite under the weather, but also in part because of this one patient in particular I was caring for.
She is in her thirties suffering from a very severe fungal type lung infection resulting from steroid treatment of a very [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 24, 2008
I’ve been sick, and as my head is full of congestion, my thoughts have similarly been, well, congested.
I’ve had a lot, LOT on my mind. Reading fetlife sparked so many interesting ideas. I’ll start with just one, alright, well, two; that of honesty and trust in M/s relationships.
Of course the pat answer [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 29, 2008
So many folks out there in the BDSM community seem to have romanticized notions of what it means to be a Master and slave. I see a whole continuum of M/s relationships with light, bedroom-type role-play being at the mild end, serious, heavy-duty 24/7 couples residing far from them, clear at the other end, and [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 20, 2008
I have been quiet and contemplating this week; filled with less of my usual vigor for life. Perhaps emotionally wrung out. Exhausted, yes, with tears never very far from the surface.
Anger that ordinarily glides o’erhead now lingers, covering me in a thick wrap and impairing my gait as I try to maneuver through [...]
