Posted by: doubleknot on: October 2, 2008
God, some days I truly wrestle with coming here to my blog; to write something honest and real. I do. Some days I really just want to make stuff up; stuff that puts me in a much better light. Silly huh?
It’s hard to write about slavery, because let’s face it, slavery [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: September 12, 2008
Main Entry: open
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: Having no protecting or concealing cover. Available for use.
Synonyms: exposed, uncovered, unprotected
Master has this magical way with me. I’m not sure how he does it, but whenever I am with him, I become this open vessel for his use.
We meet. His hands go to what is his. I do [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: September 3, 2008
My mind is a jumble of thoughts and feelings. My body is weary and empty from too many surging emotions. My energy is wilted. My mouth is dry. My body aches, even in places it has never ached before. Places no human being should ache. My eyes are scratchy and my contact lenses clouded.
This morning [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 29, 2008
Work was challenging for me this week. In part, because I am still feeling quite under the weather, but also in part because of this one patient in particular I was caring for.
She is in her thirties suffering from a very severe fungal type lung infection resulting from steroid treatment of a very [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 24, 2008
I’ve been sick, and as my head is full of congestion, my thoughts have similarly been, well, congested.
I’ve had a lot, LOT on my mind. Reading fetlife sparked so many interesting ideas. I’ll start with just one, alright, well, two; that of honesty and trust in M/s relationships.
Of course the pat answer [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: August 12, 2008
Warning, rant coming… aimed at myself.
Why be a slave? Either you’re a strong-willed woman who chose it, or a weak woman who couldn’t refuse it. I think in my case, it is a bit of both.
Is both even a sane conclusion? How can I be both??
Sometimes, I am perfectly in tune [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: July 15, 2008
By putting aside the very obvious notion that there is something psychologically wrong with a masochist, then I suppose I can begin to embrace the fact that I am one.
My roots in masochism go pretty far back to very early childhood. I blame my mother.
I’m not sure if this is how it all [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: July 3, 2008
Master and I had a talk last night.
M: I have a task for you. Buy me a toy… you have a $50 budget.
dk: What do you want?
M: Something you know I will like.
dk: I have a whole suitcase full of stuff, lol
M: Yes, but this is about you buying it specifically for me.
dk: I [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 29, 2008
So many folks out there in the BDSM community seem to have romanticized notions of what it means to be a Master and slave. I see a whole continuum of M/s relationships with light, bedroom-type role-play being at the mild end, serious, heavy-duty 24/7 couples residing far from them, clear at the other end, and [...]
Posted by: doubleknot on: June 3, 2008
Remember that song?
“Red and yellow and pink and green… purple and orange and blue…”
“I can sing a rainbow, sing a rainbow, sing a rainbow too”
Or I can just look down at my tits and see one too.
Master and I had a delightful morning of bonding and bondage and beating. The three [...]
